Just Breathe............

Well for those of you that know me I'm pretty laid back. Not too much bothers me. Even when Randy my fiance has a little temper tantrum....like all men can do. I'm calm most of the time. Everytime Randy's Dad has fallen in the yard ....been bloodied up and I've had to call the ambulance Ive been calm. But today I really feel like I am goiong to explode and I dont really know why. I mean I got home from work went out to Randy's parents to say Hello. Randys Dad was drunk as usual....bleery eyed......blood all over his face from a huge cut on his face,,,glasses all bent up and sticking out on the sides. Now that I think about it it was sort of funny looking. Anyway....he says Hey Baby!! How was your day at work????? I think I fell again this afternoon. This is just heartbreaking to me cause he is really the sweetest person drunk or sober. i have to remember this is a sickness? He is hurting himself. It is so frustrating to see him slowly kill himself. Randy and his Mom just get all mad and fuss at him. I keep telling them all it does is get them all worked up cause Pa is drunk and won't remember it the next day. Now Randy has been venting about his Dad for the last Hour. I understand he has had to deal with this his entire life......but I calmly baked him some cupcakes..:) and told him to leave and go see his Buddy...Chan!!! I am alone now and very Happy!!!! I went for a walk to clear my head and I'm feeling a little guilty for telling him to leave....but oh well........i needed a break........now I'm going to watch Criminal Minds and Just Breathe...............