Loosing Weight....

Ok,I have been trying to loose weight for a little while now. I have lost 20 pounds since September. I did gain 5 or so over Christmas..but I am finally at 158. I have been working out and watching what I eat. I am going to be in a Wedding May 3. I really need to step it up and workout harder between now and then. It really is amazing what eating a cup cake or piece of chocolate can do. I mean...especially if you eat after 8 or 9 at night. It just goes right on my BUTT!!!!! I am so happy I've lost what I have but Ive got to loose 25 more at least. I will do this. My girlfriend at work told me today she bought a dress and it was a 0. I know I will not be a Zero......but a 4 or 6 would be nice. Anyway I worked out hard tonight and I feel great. I guess Im just a work in progress......Cant wait to see what I look like after I loose the rest....If Valerie Bertinelli can go from Huge to Skinny so can I. Damn she looked HOT on the cover of People.I will write back at the end of April with a weight lose update..

Change..

Well I have'nt blogged in a while. I've been just caught up in everyday life. I was looking at some of my old journals last night. As I read the pages I thought, man I have changed so much since then. Im not too fond of change either!!!! I dont want everything to stay the same,but its safe sometimes for things in life to stay the same. Yes this is a crazy blog...... Its amazing how much people change over time. I was thinking I am a much stronger person now than I was 6 years ago. Now that I have turned 41!!!! Where is my Life going??? What kind of choices am I going to make in the future?? Am I going to be happy on my own....will I get married??? Do I really want to get married??? I do know I am happy with my life. Things could be worse........I'm healthy and have family and friends. Maybe its just I feel a bit confused at this point in my life. I will just have to figure things out..........I will let you know what happens..

Friday the 13th.....

Well its Friday the 13th. My day started out good,I had coffee got on the computer,went to work. Today was our day to Spring clean I guess you would say. Me and the girls did a great job,the office loks great by the way. Randy calls about 1o to tell me our pastor was in a bad car accident late last night and they airlifted him from Betsey Johnson to Chapel Hill. This news just threw me..... He was T-boned by a young guy about 17 yrs old. He has internal bleeding, punctured lung,relocated his esaphagus and they removed his spleeen. They were doing a CAT scan to see what else may be wrong but the last I heard was the next 24-36 hours were critical. I LoVe Mr. Bill. He really is the coolest guy. I'm a Believer in the word and a God Fearing person. I believe miracles happen everyday. I know he will get better. He pastors 2 churches and has for some time now. There was alot of people at the hospital today. Randys Aunt and Uncle went and stayed most of the day. I couldnt bring myself to go tonight. I kinda felt if I did'nt go it wouldnt be real. I dont know why.....I am going first thing in the morning. I kinda wanted to be alone with my thoughts and prayers. I know Mr. Bill is a fighter and he still has things to do here on this earth.....He is suppose to marry Me and Randy one day. I cant imagine getting married by anyone else. I wonder if God's trying to tell me something???? All I can do is have Faith and Pray for God's will to be done........

Just Breathe............

Well for those of you that know me I'm pretty laid back. Not too much bothers me. Even when Randy my fiance has a little temper tantrum....like all men can do. I'm calm most of the time. Everytime Randy's Dad has fallen in the yard ....been bloodied up and I've had to call the ambulance Ive been calm. But today I really feel like I am goiong to explode and I dont really know why. I mean I got home from work went out to Randy's parents to say Hello. Randys Dad was drunk as usual....bleery eyed......blood all over his face from a huge cut on his face,,,glasses all bent up and sticking out on the sides. Now that I think about it it was sort of funny looking. Anyway....he says Hey Baby!! How was your day at work????? I think I fell again this afternoon. This is just heartbreaking to me cause he is really the sweetest person drunk or sober. i have to remember this is a sickness? He is hurting himself. It is so frustrating to see him slowly kill himself. Randy and his Mom just get all mad and fuss at him. I keep telling them all it does is get them all worked up cause Pa is drunk and won't remember it the next day. Now Randy has been venting about his Dad for the last Hour. I understand he has had to deal with this his entire life......but I calmly baked him some cupcakes..:) and told him to leave and go see his Buddy...Chan!!! I am alone now and very Happy!!!! I went for a walk to clear my head and I'm feeling a little guilty for telling him to leave....but oh well........i needed a break........now I'm going to watch Criminal Minds and Just Breathe...............

Relay for Life

Well its that time of year again for relay for Life. My office has had a team now for 4 years I think??? Anyhow. I enjoy going and doing the walk. I like seeing other teams booths and stuff. I always stress over raising money. I'm not the kind of person to Bug you to donate either you want to give or you dont. Any how I raised 82.00 on Saterday and today I got another 50.00 I am soo happy!! I still have some more people that have asked about buying T-shirts also. There is a lady from Buies Creek that sells Southern Living home that said if I have a book party she will donate to realy. I had 3 people tonight to place orders for that. soo I am very happy I have reached my goal at least. Now i won't stress about this!!!!!

The well has run dry.....

Well after my morning blog,I got in the shower only to find I had hardly any water pressure. That's no good. Of course Randy was ClueLess as to what to do. Bobby thats Randy's dad did'nt know a thing about water pumps etc. So who do you call??? That's right!!! Daddy!!!! Man Dad's are the smartest people on the planet. Mom comes in close too now. All of us are outside trying to figure out whats wrong. we have plenty of water in the well. The pump is making a Funny noise. Now my Mom is a country girl and she knows alot about stuff like that. All I know is they cleaned the pump,replaced some screw thing and we now have Lots of water Pressure.(3 hours later) I sure am glad I did'nt live back in the old days of outhouses and washing cloths in a wash bucket.Oh and lets not forget air conditioning!! Soooo today I am Thankfull for A Dad that can fix things and WATER........... I know this was a Crazy blog but its my blog bye for now..

Spring

Finally i am all signed in and ready to go. A friend of mine tarheel bride hooked me up with this website. I have always kept a diary growing up so this bloggging is new to me. sooo here it goes.
I am so glad it has been a pretty weekend. It was warm yesterday. I am so ready for Spring. I just love to see bright flowers,butterflys and bee's buzzing around. I am a bit of a Photobug so I am usually out chasing a butterfly or bird, trying to get that perfect shot.
I forgot all about the time change.so I missed church. I really feel bad, I hate missing church. I still don't know what I am going to do today. I need to go to a funeral,but I really don't want to go. My girls at work are all busy doing family stuff and are'nt going either. I feel I should make an appearance. Just have'nt decided yet.
I know I will be watching the UNC vs. Duke game today. Gooo Heels!!!!!! Ohh today is Senior Day!! It will be Tyler's last game. I hope he plays well today.
I need to go see my cousin Amber's new baby. I have been to see him once. He is very Cute!! I still am a little upset about that whole situation. Those of you that know me understand my feelings. I wanted to be there when Michael was born but I dont think the boyfriend wanted any of us around sooo I missed out. In really should of been a Bitch and showed up anyway but I did'nt want to cause problems for Amber. Anyway whats done is done. I need to get over it. That's easier said than done.
I have a new kitty I saved from the CVS. His name is Fender. I guess he is 6 months old now. I need to take him to the Vet for his shots. fender is the Hornyest cat. He keeps Humping me, I have Never had a Cat do that. I will get him fixed as soon as he has his first shots. Sorry Fender old Buddy but it's for your own good.")
Ok thta's enough blogging for now. Untill next time...